Negative Space

by Vida Killz

/
1.
Intro 01:07
fck the parish/ where rope strangulates my subconscious/ cuz I was born into this/ heart beat with no monsters reevaluate my third eye/ cuz I was born die/ it's like why hate living/ rebirth my understanding / keep away from these vampires / emotions like blood trigger their quicksand / follow no man/ cry as much as I never could/ while my pain disintegrate thru word/ scriptures I find peace in but could never follow / hoist my self up from birth/ no mother or father couldve taught me to steer clear of what hurts/ hindered by human nature/ where mine eye was blinded then cured/ absit omen/ still chanting mantras in my sleep/ eyes awakened / my hollow soul/ now I want nothing more than to cure the world / vida saint like buddha/ synonymous with chaos/ be the negative space.
2.
Nebula 01:48
When life was priceless Didn't know what price was Or cost of living Now I can't unplug nor unsee What I've been seeing Stressing about rent When I was born for free livin In a perfect pigment Of my moms sperm And fathers eggs Scratch that/reverse it Same flow/ same distance Ride these melodies To feel my blood pulsate Chaotic in breath So I hold oxygen in my pockets Keep it close Oh I, keep you close Each time I struggle You the diamond of oceans Ain't shared it lately But you been knowin Now we sit here finally Face to face Watch the world melt away To reveal the colors You keep inside How's it feel inside? You still got hate ? Or you freed your heart now moms? How's life ? You know that bet we made? I hope you win it. I'd die to free your stress No lies, no gimmicks And I know you see me as ungrateful yes, but I just ask for respect How's a kid supposed to build with no esteem given? Learned it from these crowds That grace me with they presence No hate though, maybe that's just how it was written. Lots of things I'd like to say And unsay Do and undo But you know that. Well, I wrote this poem To express how I've been feeling Blessed yet empty Hungry yet full Loved yet malnourished But maybe it's just me. Anyways I wish you love and peace. so peace.
3.
Verse 1: Push me into oblivion Where my disaster introverts Hope when I die I finally spiral Self destruct thru a super nova Leave no distance Between time and space Geotaggin’ across the universe/ Forbidden grace Hope when I smile You read words I can’t say Caught between fear and enlightenment Autistic buddha chants for peace It ain’t hard to hear Just hard to see Like I’m reduced to a fraction of self But when you stepped into this just a fraction of self All of my subconscious knows it’s hell Figure 8’s sideways As I count down to my departure Cardiac arrested development & My heart turned into a particle I can’t find my sense Nor my dearest friends left behind to fight all of these Holograms that haunt me/ Close my eyes still they’re daunting Defeated again by/ hook: All of these snakes and sheeps and wolves/ All of these shapes that steal my courage Verse 2: Pray you know my intents Subtle as my lazy eye All I could wish for, Love letters to the child inside Momma was a hard rock Hiding a gem Poppa was an equation not even He could comprehend I could never get comfortable Couldn’t even sleep right Older I grow/ More detached from my third eye Take away these drum tracks It’s just me speakin’ to higher frequencies Art an advocate I never had But uhh, we collective virus Makin’ copies of DNA codes To mold a more perfect whole Well, Solo caen Oh how I feared home, Got lost in bottles & I got lost in hatred But it was all just a figment of my imagination hook: All of these snakes and sheeps and wolves/ All of these shapes that steal my courage Verse 3: Gun to my head Evacuate my thought process No matter where I roam We starin’ at same sun, moon & stars Still writin’ in pure form Jails keep your bars/ I ain’t want none of that/ Mainstream fame My heart’s too confused to maintain hate Just wanna retire my moms She’s been working since the 10th grade & Every man she loves Seems to leave more scars Like kick down one’s with purest heart ‘Cuz you couldn’t get none of that/ None of that/ So bizarre how it goes From me recording in my room To keep my sanity/find the peace in me/ To y’all sayin’ you feelin’ it Since you seen that untitled video/ You loved life & ain’t intent on killin’ it No more, I pray for no more hook: All of these snakes and sheeps and wolves/ All of these shapes that steal my courage
4.
Lucid Dream 03:36
Intro: I had this lucid dream once. I was standing, staring at a box of oranges One of those farmers market type of boxes All the oranges stacked perfectly With all their imperfections Such that they wouldn't fall I just stared at them Thinking how much sense it all made How someone put them there Cuz it was where they wanted them How we've been put here Cuz it's where we're wanted Then I laughed And woke up with a smirk Verse 1: Subtlety Over a cup of tea Across the table from Older me Where the table stretches as Far as open land Pure thoughts connected To form this experience We are because they are Reach out to reality As it turns to mist Now reach into your Sanity As it turns to this One box With no objects An open ended letter To the universe With my open ended living Take away these fiber optics Social digital networks Then tell me whats your net worth Who knocks on your door? Writes you letters? Does your experience of love end With no new notifications? Are your thoughts still has important With no body to like them? Share 'em/repost them/validate them Who would you take pictures for? Posing just the right way To give half of the truth The half of you You want them to see And judge you plainly by Through 5 filters from instagram and edits from photoshop To hide your acne That would actually show your humanity Well, bless this mess And life's sarcasm While I praise this rock that emits warmth With a side of cancer Sitting here Sipping my tea Laughing at the reality of death Like it ain't comin for me. Hook: Where's that truth, You read Disguised in you Where's that truth You bleed Disguised in you Verse 2: Refill Thinkin' deeply now Like I was born in silence I'm gonna die in silence So i'll sit here with my silence Observe your violence Take heed, and laugh on We came from the same place But folks act like these colors matter Human is form. We all got one heart Two lungs, well, sometimes, One mind, One tongue, well,uh sometimes,but Me and mine strugglin' just to get by Whilst I plant my investments Heard a friend say Which corporation will take me? Feed my mouth then break me? While he could never make a large enough percentage To actually make a dent in the bank account Of said corporation He still tried Consumed and consumed He still gon' die /broke As this glass eat I had a job once Til I calculated how much I made hourly Then imagined how many hours it would take To make enough to buy some food Figured it took me four hours to have What was equal to buying one meal/one movie ticket Got mad depressed and quit it They said I shouldn't even act gay Infront of the board of directors But thats blood thats in me My hands look like your hands My blood pumps like yours too With a side of heart palpitations That I should really get checked out For your information This ain't rappin' Don't be confused I just talk this way These beats my atmosphere Oh your shops closing? Well, thanks for the tea miss, I'll get going.. Hook: Where's that truth, You read Disguised in you Where's that truth You bleed Disguised in you
5.
I was a bird once/
Flight unlimited Absent from what the sun had done Fell from a tree and caught my first buzz/ Sweet bliss up in my wingspan Hadn’t been corrupted by nightmares then Roamed high and far for food Still a hustle now, as it was back when/then I could feel beauty in all things Fight these memories/ Before pollution stole my oxygen Eons ago when innocence was friend I’d float all day long with some of my homies/ ‘Cuz that’s all we knew No politics/ No system We were one Summer made us remember our birth So pure Mother Nature nourished us Supreme definition of love Gave herself purely such that we was/ Then these humans came They stole our homes Tried to rape my Mother & call her their own Some of my family died From a liquid that stole their ocean They tried to save ‘em but the damage was done/ Now they all watch these boxes/ What the hells up in those boxes Got ‘em actin’ crazy/ Killin’ eachother over those boxes/ Wish I could show ‘em where I came from My view it was abundant Everything pieced together so perfectly Now it’s all stale and barren Heard ‘em try to ridicule my brain man/
Funny they say that, but I’m the one that’s peaceful
Now what’s up with your brain man?
Someone told me the world was ending/
Seems she’s just beginning Hook We were all birds once/ But flight has ended/ too much war/yeah/ When will they mend it/
We were all birds once/ But flight has ended /too much war/yeah/ When will we mend it I lived on Earth once But life has ended 
Too much war, when will we end it? Even here as a human/ They stole my home All these corporations/ No where left to roam And like Rome they implode Stars and strapped with gats 
Projectin’ these demons within No enemy but self from down here it’s hell LGBTQ still a lesser When will y’all learn lesson Nothin’ means a thing 
except meaning you bring/ 
So why such hatred?
 Youth killin’ themselves to find Heaven
 Calm them voice witihin I know those pains Battle myself every AM Re-examin’ my thoughts After I did ‘em Can’t even talk about my upbringing without crying/ But it gets better Love thyself Happiness comes from within Even if these advertisements prove otherwise/ Money, that root of all evil/ Lead me from route to all evil. Reincarnate me thru pencil God Bless my Grandmoms
 She taught me dedication Eons ago when innocence was friend I wrote all day long ‘cuz I had no homies No politics & no system We are one Summer remind me of birth, so pure/ Moms nourished us/ Supreme definition of love Gave herself purely such that we was Heard ‘em try to ridicule my pen man/
Funny y’all say that/ When I’m the one that’s peaceful Someone told me the world was ending/
Seems she’s just beginning
6.
It’s like/it’s life Verse 1: Glass filled with ash/ 
Drinking memories you’re slipping me/ Rockin’ my intellect Multi-faceted, 
Watch how you're watching me Side smirk Laughin’ at my pettiness Oral connects, draining heart strings Wouldn’t touch you if I could, Love the empty me too much to comprehend Or chance your death of we (we) Only know of shallow marble innocence Stroke of incense Know the power my veins bring Another song to be imagined Leave formulation to universe Ignore all signs thrown my way/ ‘Cuz I’ve understood intuition’s fragility And we said it best, when we said it less Mind divides time and categorizes wishes Analytics breach my glass wall 
 Got a foreshadow of rhythmic seeds Freudian slipped and lead fate to meet destiny Two parts to temples flaring You the record my vinyl’s missin’ Gettin’ up on diggin’ down Expose my layers Feathers flexed Scales sheddin’, sheddin’ 
Baby, baby baby baby, It’s like it’s life It’s like it’s life It’s like like life It’s like it’s life It’s like like life 
Hook: Breedin’ new ground
/Same stance Whenever you ‘round/
Same dance Lady Death, Death Lady Death, Death Breedin’ new ground
/Same stance Whenever you ‘round/
Same dance Lady Death, Death Lady Death, Death VERSE 2: This one’s a tune for those who love love/ Lovers of rather admire from distance Infatuation has got us twisted Missin’ sleep and coutin’ time apart Drinkin’ broken hearts, new found art Rock few words openly Vibe vaguely sans emotional My eyes tell of soul, pain and illusion If world was on fire, 
No one could save me, but you (No one could save me but you) And the claw marks on my subconscious Have left me frail to move forward Stuck in loopholes Perpetual kiss I chase Baby, baby baby baby, It’s like it’s life It’s like it’s life It’s like like life It’s like it’s life It’s like like life 
Hook: Breedin’ new ground
/Same stance Whenever you ‘round/
Same dance Lady Death, Death Lady Death, Death Breedin’ new ground
/Same stance Whenever you ‘round/
Same dance Lady Death, Death Lady Death, Death Sol Fern:
 Recovery kept tightly Dangling from string Every pump and breath Keeps me wake And every dream
 keeps me sane If only this world
 could touch within me Keeping each word within reality Beauty found within the seams Your heart I’ll keep with me
7.
Slowing Down 03:12
Hook: It's rolling in, you can see it Ocean moving, you can see it It's slowing down, you can feel it In my heart now, you can feel it Verse: Detach from heart Fall into ego I lose myself & Find my Steelo Only promise is death Well, I ain't ready for that quite yet What's life inside this pocket watch Hour hand goes tic as my eyes go talk Lead you to a path of nothing With flames as potent as your walls or something But hey I just wanna connect Sit here riddling my emotions, vexed Push me beyond your depths Where the only you is Check-marks the spot With thoughts so conflicted I could relapse and rewind And still be right here Just pulling apart my fears Infrastructure breaking with each step But like that ever really mattered Your silence always best 23 años, haven't run out yet Just a slow roll, yeah this cold stroll As I break new ground ignore the hatred Create a new life You could swear I made it But yo these questions haunt my head Like would my loved ones care if I was no one? Changed my calling, would they still be calling? And my bro hates that I do music Swear it steals me from his life, yeah, It's bullshit But um it's all perception you'll understand it, (You'll never understand it) hook: It's rolling in, you can see it Ocean moving, you can see it It's slowing down, you can feel it In my heart now, you can feel it
8.
POETIC DEATH VERSE: The results of my community/ Got lost in that mentality/ Been trying to break these shackles ever since though/ I'm waking up to terror in a day dream/ I desire negativity/ You should hate me for my progress/ Or the love I show my enemies/ The Outcast/ So many lessons learned throughout my poetry/ I do this for the love/ And hope in time the world will notice me/ If not though/ I'm doctor octopus/ My mind in comatose/ Become the fallen angel/ Killing gabriel and the Holy Ghost/ I've been there/ And take it personal/ You know my stilo/ I could really give a fuck less/ If it aint about my people/ Or this movement that I speak of/ And she took my heart for granted/ Tried to hate her with a passion/ But see I never got my heart back/ So I'm driving with a 12 Gauge/ Pressed against my temple/ While the devil's in the passenger/ Whispering suicidal/ My only rival's my reflection/ And the ego sets the melody/ It's death before dishonor/ For my sister write the tragedy/ To be or not to be/ Nevermore VIDA VERSE: Walkin’ down these train tracks Don't know where I’m going Singing this song/ Praying someone knows it Rememberin' being 16 Wakin’ up just to drink Now I’m 23 Wakin’ up just to dream Manifest my destiny ‘Cuz these thoughts are me/ 
All I’ve grown from
 Won’t forget where I came
/ Nunca Cambiaré & a bunch of reminders that my God keeps throwing my way
 Blessed me tons, so I bless her back Kiss her gently on her forehead
 As I turn and walk away ‘Cuz although I love her/ 
I’m too paranoid to stay Ain’t ever felt this pure Outside these pens curves Chantin’ Absit Omen ‘til I D.I.E But the truth is, this prose/ the only way you gonna have a part of me/ yeah/ my bad
9.
hope was born meaning It will forever flourish imperfected creation of atoms stimulating neurons negative negative positive forever flowing my brethren and sisters unite to fight oppression equal in our human right change he said and it rang about the globe change she said and wrote about the hope she kept inside predominately quite except in matters creating domino effects stood on that lil pulpit and let her heart sing what was in it attracted those from near and far her destiny was to travel grassroots collective I always admired her mostly for her kisses second for her nature the time is now the time is strong she said she said the time is now the time is ours she said she said the time is right the time is ours peace was born and it spread throughout the globe forever knowing struggle it faces lives in darkness dwells in light redirects my path to certainty no figure of speech reach to the skies reach/ cuz every molecule deserves to feel complete nourished and abundant although these words are positive it took me negative space to see 'em reminders of old friends I've always admired the time is now the time is strong she said she said the time is now the time is ours she said she said the time is right the time is ours I said I said always reach for them stars
10.
Sixth Sense 00:51
I speak in manner to shift paradigms got these talks of peace all in my mind seekin' rivers to find the blind man ask him why this evil has any worth to bite tongues would be a lesson in this day and age they lead lost ones more to hate whilst kids die in 3rd worlds inside our own world with no clothes, no water, no food united states home of division puppets preach thoughts that we never see listen to the streets you could hear the heart beat of the people crying to be seen my passion why doust though unwind? pleading me to demonstrate with silence while my hands cuffed with speaker wire sitting lonely sitting solely cuz our destination grew foggy i chant loudly crying to be seen but this blind world cant wrap it's head around the likes of me
11.
Papa J : uhh... Luh... Lifes Took Its Toll On Me/ so hold up homie/ my thoughts blurry and this liqour has my tung slurry/ all in a hurry & excetra/ I bet ya Im stealing tape's nas on the dresser/ when alone and shit/ stealing bacardi out of my daddy frig/ when i'm feeling down mother held me to her boozum/ when pushing/ every diamater lookin/ im doging jakes/ throwing sacks in bushes/ liquor bottle broken glass on the sole of the shoe that's never frozen/ 100 miles and running/ that tunnel vision blunted/ while my music uploaded/ by another kind/ similar mind/ bullied by bully's at different time's/ life is lended by the man above/ its all love/ but at any time/ he can switch his mind/ be like give me mine/ like he mandkind/ and im not grinding to be cool/ you judge mental critisizing fool/ probably think i dropped out of school/ cause life took its tole on me/ and this weed patna on the daily has a hold on me/ i just hope i dont go out like kurt/ squirt/ the chamber till i disperse/ leave my ladie a widow and satisfy all them jerks/ but fuck em i stay grinding/ fuck em i stay grinding/ Vida Killz: still stuck Heightened nerves gotta take a shot just to sleep don't call me alcoholic just got a irate form of therapy got more hearts in pockets than all these rappers stack your egos up I'll stack this karma all that goes out comes back in ten wise of my tongue curves best medicine ignore these nerds masked as haters take away my sanity never that too much on my plate you just mad you ain't eat in months gotta feed my fam and show these kids a path up from solitude tupac poetics thug life mentality but I ain't bangin shit just dedicated rob from the rich feed the ignorant lead by my voice and your actions will follow disguise my irises but I see those monstahs hiding in your handshake I keeps to me and mines always grinding it's organized threat (repeated hella times)
12.
13.
14.
I Am/You Are 01:40
up at dawn battling my redundance I only speak when my tongue hits the drum kicks like my pulse fast & slow mostly off beat reprogram music theory Song birds songs birds come riddle debt of world occupy everything who carries mark of beast? we are hell & heaven on two feet I Buddhist who protested war with self incineration I only aimed to find peace now come one and come teach I am divinity i am masterpiece painted by piacaso I am masterpiece composed by Mozart Complete in my sanity I am water in 3rd worlds problem and solution rid me of poison I only aim to help thee I am I am you are you are I am I am you are you are free free
15.
JG VERSE: Life is like i found eternity/ seek serenity/ plenty of time to imitate essetially/ enemies that were friends to me/ not i/ ever so sequentially fall in line/ and if i try to understand what she said the words will float around my head every which way until they can convey the answers/ transfer thought patterns via our Bluetooth connection/ thats no connection/ this requires friction/ touched her with conviction/ love is like our every conversation/ path and destination/ give and take/ hesitation/ the injuries of past begin to scar/ far from disappeared but often times forgotten/ rotten nightmares remain infrequently, scarred mental too, challenged frequently/ together, conquer antagonists/ life/ time/ love/ she knows exactly what path this is HOOK: And she was equivalent/ to everything im livin with/ life time and love together we've been feelin it/ because she is equivalent/ everything we're dealing with/ life time and love/ together we've been healing it VIDA VERSE: tell me who captures and who releases my heart strings grow weakened upon this time signature where I'm praising ghosts that never talk back my love is only here when I can't see it beg the one who knows all to play me a solid hand redirect these demons life waits for no one so why should she i fell in love with the wind when I was 18 but she never saw me just a fraction of what she hoped I could be got tons of trees to float on thru hearts to captivate with how she moves these leaves sacrifice my heart for this future but it's no new story been knowing try to fill a void sabotaging glory she caused so much damage and is calm before all storm such a beautiful chaos I can't breathe without her functions what's a year to a lifetime and what's reality to wind wait until her heart sunrises then numb it down again tragic love where romance is pen fabricating half truths to spread her agenda got souls she holds in palm this ain't a love story just a story of love with no beginning just endings where I can't sleep heart and mind never in one place wind how it frustrates sees right thru me but never seeps in imbedded in my intellect constant count down to regret HOOK: And she was equivalent/ to everything im livin with/ life time and love together we've been feelin it/ because she is equivalent/ everything we're dealing with/ life time and love/ together we've been healing it
16.
Verse 1: fall of 88' i was born into this chaos second of two youngest, but that's just agewise violence in my sanctuary couldn't understand how it wasn't due to me wept in solitude saw him try to end his life every day ending in "y" first grade, i couldn't even focus jus remember cryin in class like if there's a god where's she now? emotions were such a secret never identified fast forward to this pain inside first ear i knew with no judgement called her up like grams, i can't stop crying whats wrong with my eyes? mija you're fine i know how you feel inside just give it time you remind me of myself, she said lost as a child. & it pains me to see you like this, but but you'll be fine i'll pray for you, your heart and mind mija, mija, mija yeah yeah you'll be fine // Hook: it's just mathematics so play your part this equation will last larger than you see now picture painted by numbers reminders to self it;s just mathematics it'll last/ it's just Verse 2: her words showed me what love was first time i felt it purely felt stronger from knowin she wanted to help it, braced for positivity it came and it went called her up again same story same lovin now i'm 23 having nightmares that she's slippin out from our shared reality she's grown older body is pushin her soul out witherin away hoping that i never have to see her slip away in denial that it's comin so bitter already, like when she goes will my love end? imaginin' my heart turnin to stone losing faith in hope losing love in love praying to numb my emotions once she goes home don't know how ima make it praying to numb my emotions once she goes home don't know how ima take it Hook: it's just mathematics so play your part this equation will last larger than you see now picture painted by numbers reminders to self it's just mathematics it'll last/ it's just Verse 3: all i do is to bring closure to what she went through like being born in poverty never had a chance at an education now that's not all there is to life but i cant imagining being 14 and taking care of everyone in my family like wake up just to clean wake up just to make meals i joke with the child in her sweetest love i ever knew she's got rough edges from the scars they left her but i never let her get confused that that was them, this is us me and all her grandkids me and all her kids just pray to love her no matter the distance she throws out it's merely to the extent she wants us afraid to get wounded subconsciously she did all she could told me she'd change some things but gave her faith to god hoping when she goes she knows that she can live thru me hook: it's just mathematics so play your part this equation will last larger than you see now picture painted by numbers reminders to self it;s just mathematics it'll last/ it's just
17.
Vida Verse: It's known I can't dream so I fade away star dust stuck in orbit aimed for the heavens ended up in purgatory I can't fathom living without sunsets but it's where I'm headed 700 miles away from my focal point makes me wonder how gifts appear as curses swear I got a curse on me this shroud of darkness consumes me awake to the truth that it's all in my head never claimed to be perfect just the best at doin' me I the balance that hangs future open your mind reach into what I see on the daily lost souls just tryina live lifted up on these clouds certainly perfect take a chance on peace for all is forgiven under moonlight keep your wisdom pure seek light thats props to you and yours from me and life play a infinite game of chess where even my blinks are calculated trusting self cuz it's all I have love in this body die in this body always remembered thru spirit once was a enemy of mirrors image bless my poetics and love life bless my poetics and love life Bridge: Hook: Severe Verse:
18.
Make Cents 02:40
Now christyna was the quietest only talked when spoken to unsure of what to say or how to share it she could look you in the eyes and be a million miles away without you being aware of it constant distance lost soul wandering her closest relationships were with fear and silence you could chop it up to introvertedness or perhaps she had the same DNA her brother did high functioning yet lacking emotional connection had substance but kept it bottled up had to push to be present ask questions she was naturally caring naturally fell in love only never shared or cared to share it until she met this girl who reached into her world and stopped the static rather, they shared some static vibed out to a different tune different tone of love no one knows what anything grows into so they kept planting trust and waited for something to flourish unaware it had consumed them already now I fear the end of it but shoot myself in the foot and self destruct although there's two in this one distant one fragile an equation bound to erupt older I grow I'm more paranoid of it desire to trust humans but there's so many with ill intents I just unplug throw these headphones on write some verbs nouns and predicates spit 'em over some melodies and try to call it art 7 billion on the planet not everyone is aware of it the wisdom that lives inside this storm only judge by what they've been programmed to bump haters, lovers, obsessed stalkers I've had my share of 'em now christyna reaps what she sow uncomfortable enough and it shows at shows i hide in the back come out with a microphone but i can't talk about all that my weakness might unveil make itself into a reality I'm just trying to make sense of it I'm just trying to make sense of me I aint got no friends where I'm living so this silence is defeaning ripping apart the lonely me I ain't got no friends where I'm living so this silence is defeaning I'm just trying to make sense of me
19.
How is it that love’s got me fearing love? Insomnia driven by flashbacks that I can’t map out I’ve got this deep passion, but I’m just a penny In your change bag 7 billion comparatively Wise owl slayed Judas Got sweatshops still/ Makes me see lack of caring for humanity Self-centered wannabe halves, No disrespect, I’m just ridiculing me. Two parts to this ego I carry Flow placidly As I pick apart logic Board like the box I’ll die in Where the light that radiates on these trees Taps into a deeper intellect of leaves Me wanting more Lady Death Always Leaves me wanting more Glass wall on me
20.

Hook: Mind numbed intelligence Words and words, yet very few stick Keep the following miniscule 
And pens full of bullsh*t Got the characters down
And ego fresh O.G I see reflections in oxygen Verse 1: 
 Hendrix to the lips, haze Purple rolled up Thoughts ticking time-like Second-hand slow motion Been sitting here since 6 yet it’s only 6:05 How much longer my mouth gonna cotton swell up? Was it my turn to puff, or did I just hit it? 
Damn, no cognitive of thoughts Yet I’m feeling sly vibe My blood pulsating Heart beating in my ears, Oh, how I hate this part Dear, talk me through this 
THC invading my nucleus Truth being, I fantasize ‘bout her Mary jane, middle lane, lifting J’s to the sky Engulfed her to my face Yet, how I feel ain’t returned She take it to a whole other level Only girl I could never keep up with Tappin’ my minds eye Sifting through repugnance No tailored audience She just shaking her bits Bud over anything Indicia sweet edibles Hook: Mind numbed intelligence Words and words, yet very few stick Keep the following miniscule 
and pens full of bullsh*t Got the characters down
 and ego fresh O.G I see reflections in oxygen Verse 2: When that blunt touch my lips it’s highest contradiction My ground zero rhythms bleeding backwards Lady loves got my fears tied up and bound Sado/ hello/ to my lungs Sure shot to miss 
8th of mental trip More rips than your average Mary gon’ be my one stolen lust Hook: Mind numbed intelligence Words and words, yet very few stick Keep the following miniscule and pens full of bullsh*t Got the characters down
 and ego fresh O.G I see reflections in oxygen
21.
Star-Crossed 01:24
did you ever hear about those two girls that never died? it was said they found a portal that kept them young hearts forever beat in unison but they couldn't function so they just sat there staring at each other/ with locked eyes / star crossed lovers suspended in time forever waiting for something to reach into 'em and change their minds peddle 'em backwards Take back all those words worthless epiphanies where the baby outgrew her cradle no more sung of lullaby innocence forgotten where one once begun other couldn't recall it most beautiful connection deception looking around for a sign of recollection repaint this canvass touch up their blemishes who tainted trust? whose the hero? is she the villain? what caused their plot twist? too much likeness or too much unsaid? was it violence or love just unfed? you see it these hallways painted in red is that bloodshed or function of arteries? she push walls outward but they only effecting she letters to the wind again that was then and this is me all these letters spread like wings depart from she other one drowning in confusion of what's right and wrong let her cross boundaries while you promise to be better while you promise to get better while you promise to never hurt me they just sat there star crossed lovers
22.
Imaginary 00:34
they were wanders crept high and far no star wasnt their comfort roamed about unsure of doubt envied by many except me too scared to pave my way drove 700 miles away to realize who my friends was imaginary enemies imaginary friends i’d steal the sun for you again and again, these scenes riddle my head cant pinpoint intents, just shameful blurred memories disguise the love in me numb it through pen imaginary enemies imaginary friends
23.
Believe what you want/ While I seek what I will/ ill intent on breaking free Used to want to be a different type of me More confident/Less humble All jokes aside, internalized my destiny 'til it became a deeper sense of me Now I stay gobbling it up Toe to toe with insecurity While y'all front like y'all ain't one of me/ Well I take that/See it/Raise you 12 Remember when hip-hop meant something? Collective oppression created this whole movement/ 'Til the media swallowed it up, Gave you chumps change some gold chains Tied ropes to your cerebral cortex Now, go on and dislike this, like y'all did every other thing that I am bumpin in I'm just saying, this art form was doper, When folks knew it wasn't about hitting the 1s and 3s Or the 2s and 4s Back before I could fuck up a freestyle with a prewritten Cuz I meditated on it for like 3 weeks, but felt fake Wrote something on the bus/ Wanted to remember it, but just wanted to run away From what this beauty has become It's all dried up and gluttonous/ While I just hope to save some souls/ All I want is a spot on that mixtape you make your friends X's 2

about

This album is a 23 track album which includes 18 songs along with 5 spoken word pieces, and collaborations with some of my favorite folks who rap.

credits

released November 14, 2012

license

all rights reserved

tags

about

Vida Killz San Jose

Born and raised up inside the rhythms of San Jose’s streets.

Vida works to ground herself in the understanding that there are deeply innate cycles to life.

With her unique gift of orchestrating words, she articulates this wisdom to her listeners, and shares her emotions in a way that gives a direct glimpse into her heart.
... more

contact / help

Contact Vida Killz

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Report this album or account