A Year In Words: Volume I

by Vida Killz

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1.
03:11
This is not a song about a lover This is a song about a loved one Sent me spiraling down the path of inner hatred Sicker than that of betrayal This is not about one person This is about many Lead me to believe they were right for me Then stabbed me in the heart strings Where my pulse exists is unknown Cuz when I was younger my heart did not have a home Merely a suitcase Which weekend they wanted me Was it me who caused this, Without regard to their affirmations Still my spirit feels tainted,, In a room full of loved ones I still feel out of place Vacant Now during the teen years It played out much the same Cats kept close to me for what I had to offer Not who I was Then attempted, failingly, to devour my sanity I dream of youth where no one told me how life is Was it really protection or setting me up to fail Now now I’ve learned and mastered on how to navigate And shed each veil that keeps me from you And you Still there is boundaries, Now in my twenties, I’ve felt family fall to darkness, Ancestors who shall remain a memory Such a divine dance Lady death, Dios, keeping things in balance Such that now there is still something in me, Beating Beating Beating ----- I want peace of mind ( I pulled off the wings of a butterfly )
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02:07
3.
02:47
Two seeds from the same pod Planted congruently Malnourished just the same One stays indoors, mostly The other just inside their brain Grew up parallel With perpendicular paths Heaps of resentment Tarnished understandings of family Where each phone call is a time bomb Next chapter was foreshadowed previous to their moon cycle Internally, they long for connection External tells of hollow tales Feeling like it was meant to be more than him and I Two wall flowers with identical interpretations of this broken glass It's a tranquil remembrance in which our emotions are finally able to cope and understand what's passed See beauty before me, pray to lift him up Shine for you and I Unaware of who hears my fears, feels my insides Paradise was only a foolish dream No place else I'd rather be, than in his life Wished once to a thousand times Erase all pain he'd experienced yet it's only made him stronger Kids can be so vile, somehow adults aren't any better Caught a glimpse of truth, I held it to my eyes All that reaps, sewing benefits Target practice of love's the hardest gift Knowing there's one road to live Show him construction in a safer haven Genius of a deeper flavor My cursive draws a rope that ties our paper airplanes together From forever 'til the end of stanza It's like acceptance is our only answer To these blank pages where our indentations breath oxygen Longed for an act of knowledge Counting time until we meet our maker I hate this chance of fate Can't accept who might go sooner Brother, I hope you fulfill your hunger Caught a glimpse of truth, I held it to my eyes Caught a glimpse of you, I held you in my mind Caught a glimpse of you, I held you to my eyes Caught a glimpse of truth, I held it in my mind
4.
03:33
When push fights shove It's me versus asphalt Hustle pavement Ways to pave change All she meant was lined with good intentions I'm rhyme playing to see my world laugh her ass off Forgive the ill remarks, please I've been dormant for many seasons Recollecting my grounding cuz Mother Nature shook my Earth and my sanity took a pounding Confidence was left, yes. But what is Ego with no logic My heart strings disconnected when my fingers touched the product Of sound waves with no structure, no shelter could fulfill the longing Of all that's been torn from inside the fruit tree that created knowledge It blinded the souls who sought bliss from karma and holy calling Now our mission in life is that of common sense From the 6th one that the stars are falling Into pockets where lint is organ Ordained from Nostradamus Vida Killz is known prophecy Although we ignore the signs which taught us To believe in all, and love you'll see Only advice I will ever offer Live with heart open & head lifted Believe in all and love you'll see (Jim Morrison Speech) Seduced by worldly temptations Cut off at dotted lines Still I remain part of this mechanism Keep these nomads all in line Holding no transcripts of where we are Or who we've been Merely standing causes chaos Two feet, no feeling attached Merely breathing causes malfunction No love for stolen chants Misusing language of human nature Where art form deteriorates to profit In pockets of stars that never meet I hold my hope in silence For these words they'll never speak
5.
02:21
If i were to take reign of both hemispheres I’d cut ties with governments Cross x’s in their eyes Hows what you're doing benefiting me If my taxes pay your wages Yet i cant get married And fuck proposition 8 And anyone who backed it Like me and the wifey Are really stoppin’ your children from graduating college Like thats what lives about It's not the object of love But the emotion itself Got gays who fought in wars Yet could never safely come out And why the **** do we live in closets It's 2011 And still suppressed And who the hell shot that kid at pride last year Now if i ruled the global I’d make those sick folks in Uganda Wear shirts with targets on their hearts Shoot ‘em with paint balls For each human being forcefully raped Killed or harassed for being rainbow loving Like the physical harm endured is gonna stop their fibers from crawling Make their love for their partner cease Wake them up from the truth they’re living Yoo im sick of all the homophobic rappers, Acting like we’re tryina convert you Heterosexual entitlement Wisdom see, We hate that which causes us to feel inferior And ive got nothing but prayers for all the souls Who crossed our boundaries Much love to all the young LBGTQ who felt invisible And made their realities reflect their emotions No longer walking on earth But still i’m holding hope that Those opposed will see the light soon Cuz in the end we die, and my heart bleeds From all this abuse Inflicted You see i’m reminded daily 1200 plus rights ive had stripped from My humanity And Obama who? If he still ain’t dropped the hand and told the churches to stay The fuck up out the politics Where your church is run by folks who marry more than once And force your kids to do the same I wanna take you back to when gay was used as happy Not to say something was stupid The ignorance enlightens me Keep standing, y'all just keep standing Don't let the negative take you down Keep standing, your love is felt and love surrounds
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7.
03:18
call me foolish, well, I’m desolate casting stones upon the highest road interpreting seasons calling me say you want me, then retract it like each statement was made to feed your calloused thoughts. told me, "stay with me, now, silent. I’ll be back, swear it.. for your beauty is far too potent." watch you drain my stale air, but it’s me, the frail, fragile hare throw myself inside fire storms, and wonder why it burns wish you could be all I need, denial, slow supplier even in distance i chant for you mantra feed me soul, brahman holds all knowledge sans duplicity where detachment cares who abuses and excites molecules. i’ve known many, wanted none, too afraid of catapulting remind me when I come, your touch, it broods my fire i could live off morsels of sensuality for sex is too far gone i sing in pure thought, those who follow, restart my pure of heart 'cuz this pain is like a final dusk always wished you best in life, fly feline got you tatted on my rib cage, these odes and holograms are how we’ve always communicated seems our connection without beds of time signature, boom, kick, the drum does slip told you let’s play a game of no words lasted 20 minutes your energies aren’t aligned in your confidence i’ve had no doubts that you’re the one & i am yours i could write you albums of love, watch you press repeat as if these were merely for the world see, these feverish humanoids seek to fill voids, our love is destiny, from ancient times when i was king and you were pearl of village fought to steal your heart seems the dance repeats in modern time romanticizing [on] who could build a better world baby, let’s get lost tonight for life in eye sight. i will keep you safe from things which bump&creep in silent times for now I rest my weary eyes, 'til you open hand songs to you before I met, no coincidence, lady death, teach me how to sing again.

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In 2011 Vida Killz challenged herself to make an EP every month for the entire year. The challenge was in hopes to create a vast growth in productivity, as well as, a platform to showcase the numerous sides to Vida's art form. The EPs were collaborations with a multitude of producers and musicians. Although, the challenge was met, some projects were not completed how they were intended due to unforeseen circumstances. Whether in regards to mixing, lyrics, etc. This compilation will showcase each track as it was meant to be released as.

This compilation is a homage to the entire project. This is Volume I of IV, all of which will be FREE. Enjoy!

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released April 4, 2013

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Vida Killz San Jose

Born and raised up inside the rhythms of San Jose’s streets.

Vida works to ground herself in the understanding that there are deeply innate cycles to life.

With her unique gift of orchestrating words, she articulates this wisdom to her listeners, and shares her emotions in a way that gives a direct glimpse into her heart.
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